"I am my own worst enemy" has to be just about the realest thing I can say about myself and Love. I have trouble seeing why people can Love me. I cant shake that it could be genuine. I cant shake that every woman isn't the same. Too often Afraid to put my heart on the line, Too often afraid to totally lose myself in someone and trust them with my heart. Maybe this is where everyone feels that the asshole part of me comes into play."
I think I just lost the person who loved me more than anyone else ever has, but the sad shit is I overlooked all this shit & didnt realize how much I loved her until she was fed up. I really dont know how long I expected her to stay around without giving her my complete devoted attention. Anything I needed or anytime i Needed her there she was there. All she wanted was the same in return. A friend told me today that I go into self destruct mode anytime someone really cares about me. I couldnt agree more. Another friend told me that the Animals who fight evolution become extinct. The way I handle love i probably should have been there by now.
