Paper Planes

I'm reading my private diary from 2008 and for 5 months everything I wrote was about him. I pride myself on being a "thug. I don't usually care about anything... But he's different. He's always been different. So now I'm a hypocrite. I wanna fall in love & get married and have babies, that look like him because his nose is better than mine. I'm not normal. Most people don't tell the world when they go against their "principles" but for me it's like... wow. I'm open to something I never really wanted to be open to.. Does monogamy in your 20s exist? My biggest fear is that it doesn't. BUT I'd leave all my hoes for him. Not like them hoes was acting right or anything. It's just the idea that I'd consider myself someones something... I no likey the titles. I don't like possessive articles. What happens now? I have no idea... If it works.. I can't blog about it.. I'm really not even blogging about it right now. I'm talking around it.. I do not enjoy this shit at all...

Gray to Green box Ratio, HeauxDeGoHard

The most aggravating thing in life continues to be someone Who doesnt wait to have the Proper Gray to GreenBox ratio when texting someone... Answering yourself as if the conversation has continued is never a good look. Who does this?

Well U must not want that shit (randumb)

This week alot of dumb shit was said:

1. "God gon bless you for being nice, not being stupid" - mama
2. "I don't want it bad enough to do it in 90 degree weather"
3. "I knew I was horny for real"
4. Them hoes got needles in they pussy
5. Only 3 things could happen if you cross the hump: death, STDs or the trap
6. NO they dumb black hoes they'll buy you shit
7. Yeah she got herpes.. NO not that one... NO ALL them niggas got herpes (they gay)
8. Where the fuck you from wit dat fake ass Boosie fade?
9. When a man look in the mirror he think he Kobe, Denzel, a mandigo warrior fuck we just think we the shit

Epiphany 2010

I'm having the same damn conversation I always have about men and relationships and it dawns on me!

The reason I am the way I am is because I have awesome male friends. All the emotional support and stability that most women get from having a boyfriend, is the support I get from my male friends. Most men see women as an after thought because male friendship is much more loyal than female friendship. Which is exactly why I'm so stable. It all makes so much sense. I love my homegirls but lets face it... loyalty is DEAD!
 Male bonding is gay but women aren't loyal. I don't feel like my girls have my back BUT I know for a fact if a nigga hit me my boys will murder him. A woman will throw you under a bus for some dick & a happy meal. That's why women need men in some capacity to balance everything.
I just don't need a boyfriend because I have friends that are boys who hold me down emotionally, mentally & spiritually & them hoes they handle the rest LOL!