Death by phone

If phones were people they would be the ones we know are bad for us but we still can't let go!

Today, my iPhone broke! The camera just stopped working so I got a new phone. For about 2 hours I had no contacts or apps. Then I came home to sync my phone and for an hour I was phoneless. Being phoneless maybe the most painful situation ever for a young person. If your boyfriend dumps you, you grab your phone and text your friends. If you need to know where something is or what it's called, you google it from your phone! Phones are like hands! I'm so crippled by my phone it's really sad.

So I thought what if I didn't have a cell phone? What would I do? Would I be forced to go and see people? Would people come to see me? Would I actually pay attention while watching television or would I just sit on my laptop and do all the things I used to do on my phone? LOL! Technology has ruined communication. But we know that.

So as previously stated on my mission to grow and get better daily, I'm putting my cell phone down for 3 hours a day WHILE I'M AWAKE!!!

So it begins...

It doesn't feel like a decade just ended!

Honestly 2010 was the longest year of my life. I didn't think it would ever end. I guess when you have nothing to do every second feels like a minute and minutes feel like hours. Then when days seem like weeks it gets harder.

Breathing is no longer a luxury it's something I do get to do quite often. Life used to move so fast. Now it's s. l. o. w...  Changing pace is pretty healthy. I'm ready to press the gas again.

In 2011, I hope to be a better person. More of a "ray of sunshine" than the queen of shade. Trust me I'm still opinionated. I just realize that some people take opinions as facts then twist and distort my words to mean what they want them to mean. The price you pay for being honest (I know)!

My "Resolution" of sorts is just to be a better me. For myself and the people I love. I am going to grow from mistakes, learn from failures, smile in the hard times, appreciate the rain as much as the sun & keep rocking to the beat of my own drum.

Every month is like section in the book of life for me. Years are my chapters and I don't think the last chapter ended with the BANG I wanted. No regrets.

At this point, I just feel different. There's no way I can explain it, so I'm just living it!

I'm ready for all the mistakes, blessings, joys and pains that will come with 2011. I'm not afraid.

Idolization & Ignoring

Niggaz are backwards, niggaz confuse me. I dont take death lightly but Most niggaz are bandwagon mourners. We care more about celebrities we dont know than the person we see everyday. Celebrities do touch us through their work and its ok to feel for them. But I see a lot of people who are campaigning against senseless killing today who dont do the same everyday or in any other case. For instance Everyone is sad about Magnolia Shorty's passing.. But I see the same people screaming Free Boosie. A man who is accused of being connected with multiple murders. (I didnt say He was guilty and im not passing my judgement thats between him God and our Legal system) If we are going to care about a cause care about it all the time and not just because its the hot shit to do at the moment. Death is never funny & shouldnt be a bandwagon thing. I.e. i care about her life because they were a celebrity, but fuck the others people lives thats dead currently because its got my favorite celebrity locked up. (Logic & Reason Fucked up much?) This senseless killing between Baton Rouge, & New Orleans should be a daily campaign. Louisiana is ranked the 3rd most dangerous state in the U.S. which Im sure Baton Rouge & New Orleans have a lot to do with. So this Killing has never been a suprise. I think its disrespectful to only care some of the time.

Niggas gotta stop being a walking contradiction and if you gonna give a fuck, give a fuck all the time. I care about everyones life because i know at any given moment it could be one of my kids, family or friends.

Venus Cheating on Mars Vs. Mars Cheating on Venus

Men Lie. Women Lie. Men Cheat. Women Cheat. Women just happen to do both things a lot better & for different reasons.

Women Cheat & Lie better and are convinced that they aren’t doing either of the two if you don’t know about it. A woman can cheat lie & look you in the face and accuse you of the things they are doing and convince themselves they are innocent and have good reason to be hurt. Women cheat for simple reasons.