Resignation

*I'm dead serious. Me, myself & I are having a serious talk*

Dear self,

Lately you've been pissing me off to the point of no return. We used to have goals. We had this drive that could move mountains and make incredible things happen. After one or two disappointing situations you lost all faith in me. You make no fucking sense. How can you lose faith in me and still believe that there's something great and worthwhile in every person you meet. I fucked up. I should have been more focused on what was important. Now I suffer for past mistakes. FOCUS...

Do you realize how complacent we are? Yes duh! From this day forward: live life, smile, eat food, stop being afraid of success because at this stage in the game failing is the cop out. If you don't like it don't do it. If someone doesn't like what you do or say... guess what? You were born alone you live alone and when you die.. that's right alone. People have done nothing but give you headaches and make your nerves bad, you don't owe anybody anything...except me. You owe me happiness... better yet you owe me JOY... the feeling that exist no matter what. Temporary won't do anymore.
You owe me giggles, whens the last time we giggled?
Christmas Eve! That was a long time ago, you've denied me... You've turned bitter and angry. You're a nice bitch stop being a mean bitch. Its hard.. what's hard? Its hard to stop being this person and start being that person again... wait wtf... you only turned into this person because you fucked up. This is true. So now you move on. You really move on.
I'm gonna back to college I need a degree and a career that I love. I feel better already.