Friends,,,No Benefits

This one is hella late but I've just been busy. I wonder if ive ever made someone feel as frustrated as this chick makes me by not being able to handle no. If so I apologize cause the shit is annoying as hell. I met a beautiful girl who said she possibly wanted a tattoo and consider her to twist my hair! I never got a chance to do either of the two because she starts going hard immediately. She calls me and I asked her motifs and she was like I see you sometimes around and says that she can see another layer of me that not everyone else sees. She told me that she felt like God placed her to be a great friend to me nothing more. Im thinkin "Cool I dont go to Church or do the things I really need to show God Im thankful! For a few days she plays the innocent thing and the friend role that even got her near me. This nigga texts me and i see that she's full of shit and reniggin!





So i was tellin my boys how i felt about the situation, and after saying "man you sound like the bitch in the situation!" They laughed and said they were going through some similar shit. Lol upon reading back over the conversation..I sounded like a straight heaux, but fukk it I really meant it and dont need the extra!

I dunno Ive been off of a lot of shit that i normally wouldnt have a problem with doing. I think I have all I need right now and adding random pussy in the mix wont do anything for me. The fucked up part is i though the chick would be a really good friend down the line. Ron Browz she jumped out the window with that shit!

Women think about everything a nigga does that pisses you off! Then do a self check because yall are guilty of doing the same shit and dont realize it! In my case chick found and opening through businiess, flipped it to friends, and tried to smash a nigga. SMH

I guess I have to reevaluate how i am with people to see if Im sending the wrong signals in life. But with her I never touched, hugged, Kissed, or did anything for her to assume that she would be able to get it. A pretty face and a body doesnt equal an instant victory over here.

Like As IF (ran-dumb)

In case this is your first time reading.. a ran-dumb is a list of things I'm thinking about that I can't blog about..

1. Fafi's are cool as f-ck big ups to iC_Cole (I remember everything)
2. Clueless the sequel.. I heard about it now where is it??
3. BLACK & GOLD to the SUPERBOWL!!!!
4. I'm going to Miami trick!!
5. I miss Gretchen idk where she is..
6. I dont like getting head b/c I used to date white guys.. sorry black guys you suck at giving head
7. Intellectual men think too damn much.. that's why I like dumb nuggahs
8. I'm NOT one of those always in the club girls so dont ask me always in the club questions
9. Its funny people always say they're broke but always going somewhere expensive
10. I don't smoke trees.. it's not my thing.. stop asking
11. F-cking married men will not get you respect or into heaven for that matter...*side-eye*
12. It's amazing how dirty whores always talk about how there's no good men.. BITCH you're not a good woman GTFOH
13. I'm secretly afraid of success like if I got a million hits a day I'd probably stop blogging.. crazy I know.
14. "If New Orleans didn't come back there would be no New Orleans Saints"- Greatest quote of the weekend
15. My mother used to tell me not to be common, I finally understand what she meant. the more people see you the less they care about you.
16. I'm really important to people that I haven't seen in over 8 years I don't know why but they always have my name in their mouths.
17. I miss Kari Ann..
18. My vibrator is cool and all but I'm gonna need some real sex... asap...
19. Beyonce wears a weave & guys never knock her but I can't have a weave?? Go to shit...
20. This man looks like George Lopez with a  mullet & I'm afraid
21. He text me at 6 a.m. like every morning.. but I'll let that pass..
22. When he goes back to the west coast I'm gonna text him at 6 a.m. CST
23. A closed mouth don't get fed but consider the food before you open up
24. Product placement in television pisses me off

I'm stuck up & U could NEVER bring me down

My friends are stupid. Sorry bitchs but you are. They date guys who are completely beneath them because somebody told them being stuck up was wrong. HA HA no! There's nothing wrong with holding yourself to a higher standard. My daddy is an engineer and a pastor. I can't date a guy whose never gone to college we have NOTHING to talk about. I can't date a guy with no job.. I don't loan men money. I won't date a guy without a car, you are NOT driving mine. I can't take a man with a facebook middle name seriously.
Men tell women so many lies to get the pussy and women just believe them. Being stuck up is the only reason that basic bitch wanted you in the first place, poor men want stuck up women so they can bring them down. Men love to be in control and that's like a trophee. Nobody's checking for the guy who works at Jack in the Box. Why would you and your degree give him a chance???
It's not an 80s romantic comedy the bad boy won't come around. Also those movies were based in high school & we all know the most popular guy from high school works at wal-mart now. Popularity is a joke. I'm amazed by women in New Orleans and their desire for "popular men" with no jobs, ambition or desire to be great. Beyonce didn't marry the paper boy. You jock everything famous people do but you don't date on your own level. Ambition be a GOAL digger not a GOLD digger, everything that glitters isn't real. HILARIOUS the end.

The Relationship Bull

This is mostly personal about ME & a brief study of other people if you get offended.. grown the f-ck up!

I don't know why I try so hard to be in monogamous relationships when I love new challenges. There are guys who will always be more important than others. BUT right now I'm figuring me out. The greatest advice I ever recieved was from a woman who was getting divorced. She said "I had to work on my me shit while he was working on his he shit so we had no time for the we shit." I need to know who I am 100% before I try to give my all to someone else. Almost (read almost) everyone I know in their 20s whose in a "relationship" has conversations, interactions or even sex with someone who isn't the person they're commited to. Emotional cheating is just as bad. So why do people still bullshit with the "title" thing. I think women do it to feel special, I think men to it to have guarenteed pussy.

I often think about the progression of life. My grandmother was married in her teens, my moms generation got married in their 20s, so I assume I should be married in my 30s. I need time to be ME. Not my mother's daughter, my husband's wife or children's mother. Independent self sufficient ME. I need to have my own indentity before I decide to be label myself as someone elses something. I want to be independent truly independent, granted this may not be the goal of other women... if this isn't your goal don't be offended by what I want. My mother didn't pay for 20 years of my education for me to get married. I could have gone to public school and skipped college for all that.

The moral of the story: I'm tired of letting other people or "social norms" define what makes me happy. I don't do married shit (cooking, cleaning, co-habiting, buying gifts, going on vacations etc..) with men I date, because it's just that DATING. Just because you feel that that's what works for you doesn't mean I have to. Also from all the situations I've seen where people do married things before getting married it just leaves you with more heartache. I want to be with someone because I want them NOT because I need them. I'm just in it for dick and conversation everything else comes from God, my parents, my sanity & self respect. I can't do what makes other people happy. Pussy does NOTHING for me, I hae my own & well it's a bitch. I won't be in a relationship on facebook because titles are important to you. For the record.. they don't leave me, we take breaks. Meanwhile ya'll heartbroken & devastated... Whose losing?? The fact that I've never given anyone my all, keeps me above the bullshit. & I refuse to let anyones opinion of anything in MY life shape who I am.

My parents still love each other but they aren't together because of what other people thought.. Wise people learn from others mistakes, fools learn from their own mistakes.. I'm too wise for you fools!