The answer minus the questions

Everyone has a bad day... Or week. Sometimes you have a shitty month... But how do you turn it off. Everyone says cheer up NO ONE says how... So here's your answer NO questions!

Those closest to me know that last year I suffered from some serious depression. And all I did was talk about it. THAT'S THE WORST THING YOU CAN DO! I believe in the law of attraction. The law states that like attracts like. The simplest way to explain it is that your thoughts become the things in your life. You attract what you think about most and if all your thoughts are consistently on the things you hate... Everything you hate dominates you! It's kind of hard not to talk about what's wrong. BUT dwelling on what's wrong only gives you more issues.  

Summer Stuff!! Victoria's Secret Edition!!

You know I adore womanhood and all the great things she has to offer so here goes!!!

If you know me you know I worked at VS for 3 1/2 years so I love love their stuff I know it's good and I stand behind it.

When I think about you...

I don't understand what it is.. but new-ness..

I'm happy and as much as happiness scares the shit out of me. I'm digging it. I can jump on the bed and watch Spongebob. I can read Joel Osteen books until I explode BUT to be truly happy with my life.. it's new to me . 2009 was a drag. It was long and sad and draining. Pieces of my soul died and others were revived.The most important thing was, I lived through it.

I've liked guys before, but this is that rare animal attraction. If I think about him too long I'll f-ck myself. He makes my heart stop. It's so simple.. I keep trying to complicate it but I can't. I genuinely enjoy someone and there's no catch. I hate writing about people who read my writing. BUT I'm not guarding my words on this one. He's the sex... and we all know I'm a mental nympho.

I've given up my delusion and my life is now interesting. New job, new-ness & relocation... Did I mention I dumped Big forever and ever and ever. Oh and that other dude too.. (Not because of new-ness because they both suck at life.. it's actually been a while since I did it. I just didn't feel the need to blog it)

It's like a new chapter in life. And NO I'm not trying to get married and have babies. I'm just enjoying a man for once. I'm still on a mission to be successful and no matter how fun or exciting new guys are I can't lose sight of who I am and what I want. Personal success trumps everything. That's the thing about life that's both amazing and shitty. It's easier to focus on things that don't matter (social situations & relationships) than it is to focus on what matters (family, school, work, personal success) that's why there's so much drama in the world, it's easier not to solve your problems. My eyes are engaged on me & what's best for me.

"Whatever tomorrow brings I'll be there with open arms & open eyes" Incubus - Drive

The Relationship Bull

This is mostly personal about ME & a brief study of other people if you get offended.. grown the f-ck up!

I don't know why I try so hard to be in monogamous relationships when I love new challenges. There are guys who will always be more important than others. BUT right now I'm figuring me out. The greatest advice I ever recieved was from a woman who was getting divorced. She said "I had to work on my me shit while he was working on his he shit so we had no time for the we shit." I need to know who I am 100% before I try to give my all to someone else. Almost (read almost) everyone I know in their 20s whose in a "relationship" has conversations, interactions or even sex with someone who isn't the person they're commited to. Emotional cheating is just as bad. So why do people still bullshit with the "title" thing. I think women do it to feel special, I think men to it to have guarenteed pussy.

I often think about the progression of life. My grandmother was married in her teens, my moms generation got married in their 20s, so I assume I should be married in my 30s. I need time to be ME. Not my mother's daughter, my husband's wife or children's mother. Independent self sufficient ME. I need to have my own indentity before I decide to be label myself as someone elses something. I want to be independent truly independent, granted this may not be the goal of other women... if this isn't your goal don't be offended by what I want. My mother didn't pay for 20 years of my education for me to get married. I could have gone to public school and skipped college for all that.

The moral of the story: I'm tired of letting other people or "social norms" define what makes me happy. I don't do married shit (cooking, cleaning, co-habiting, buying gifts, going on vacations etc..) with men I date, because it's just that DATING. Just because you feel that that's what works for you doesn't mean I have to. Also from all the situations I've seen where people do married things before getting married it just leaves you with more heartache. I want to be with someone because I want them NOT because I need them. I'm just in it for dick and conversation everything else comes from God, my parents, my sanity & self respect. I can't do what makes other people happy. Pussy does NOTHING for me, I hae my own & well it's a bitch. I won't be in a relationship on facebook because titles are important to you. For the record.. they don't leave me, we take breaks. Meanwhile ya'll heartbroken & devastated... Whose losing?? The fact that I've never given anyone my all, keeps me above the bullshit. & I refuse to let anyones opinion of anything in MY life shape who I am.

My parents still love each other but they aren't together because of what other people thought.. Wise people learn from others mistakes, fools learn from their own mistakes.. I'm too wise for you fools!

Truly kind gesture

Yesterday I went to eat alone in B.R while I was there I saw this woman. I'm sure all my LSU readers have encountered her she's bald and has some disablitiy or mental illness. She's never asked me for money, I've never even seen her begging but she's always around and in some trance like stage. Yesterday, she was having lunch with this middle aged well-dressed white woman. The woman [white lady] didn't seem to want attention, there was no camera crew, she was just doing something kind. I was touched. It's so rare to see a truly kind gesture from someones heart. This woman didn't seem to gain anything from buying this other lady lunch she just did. It makes me wanna do something... asap

Always wear lipstick NEVER get married

In freshmen English I had to read this short story called always wear lipstick, never get married. It made me think harder than I cared to at the time but at 19 I decided to stop being the girl who needs a guy. My only goal was to be the best friend, sister, daughter ever [maybe I should have wanted to be a good student might have a degree]. I was the BEST FRIEND I've ever been I was always there when people needed me. I partied my lil ass off and I wasn't worried about anything. Then Jessi moved away and twin got a boyfriend. When your drinking buddies leave you have 2 choices drink alone [did that] or get my drinking buddies [did that too]. In meeting new drinking buddies I started to meet guys. That's when I met he who shall remain nameless. Nameless was the best/worst thing ever he was a bum, he was kinda cute, he was always broke but he was lovable kinda. We "messed" for about a year. I wrecked my car rushing back to school to see him. God gives you signs when things aren't right. I had no desire to marry this guy or be with him forever it was just fun or so I thought. Til my next epiphany came... you can't fuck with guys you couldn't have a kid for. I wasn't pregnant but I was scared as fuck, every girls had that scare she didn't want. The thought of having a kid with loser boy was enough to make me never speak to him again.

The point of this random pointless story is this as long as I wasn't focused on men my life was awesome but as soon as I got "bored" and let that loser into my life I had headaches and issues and problems... fuck all that I wanted fun

The woman has a mustache

1. This woman has a full stache
2. I decided to be a twit-slut
3. I'm gonna twitter fine men only [and friend boys] LOL
4. I'm dying to say "touch my body", "biooootch", and "I'm tryna get outta dis box"
5. Don't be texting me stuff about stuff that ain't important or funny
6. I'm gonna go crazy before tomorrow
7. I like arguing it's cute
8. Somebody text me and I'm all warm and fuzzy... LMAO
9. I'm wack as hell
10. If one more person tells me about myself I'mma fight em
11. I already said dat whatever u think is witty and original u ain't make that shit up... I said it about me a long time ago jackass
12. Me and Barkley are having a baby b.c I refuse to strap up
13. Barkey is the batteries... either u get it or you don't
14. I didn't even eat my yogurt :-(
15. It's raining. I wanna make out
16. I like yogurt
17. I just opened the yogurt and it squirted on my neck
18. GROSS

2 cents

So yesterday I was kinda sad and prayed about whether or not I should keep doing this and this morning after the 2nd blog I looked at how much money I made and it was 2 cents.. so I decided to keep blogging because God put his 2 cents in LOL. I haven't made money in like 6 days... BAD FANS.

Bucket list

1. Swim with dolphins
2. Rock real hair for a year (in my twenties)
3. Go out in Vegas with a bunch of my friend girls
4. Buy Saints & Hornets season tickets
5. Jump out of a plane
6. Pose for Playboy (somedays I wanna somedays I don't)
7. Volunteer at soup kitchen
8. Work with Dove's campaign for real beauty
9. Pay full price for something really pointless (I never pay full price for anything)
10. Use a man for his money (I've never done it)

Thats not all but I don't know what else yet

I'm a bad lil kid

I always do bad stuff... he's gonna block me from his twitter.. LOL! I'm lil a bad kid I do stuff for shock value. Last night I text him and I was like u r a jackass... I just did it not because I feel that way because if we were in person I'd steal his shoe and run but I can't do this... (only post today about about b.b.u) cause I'm tired of ya'll asking who I'm talking about and noo I won't tell his name cuz naming the puppy leads to possessive articles.
I said I'm glad u know Jesus... I know he's pissed. I'm not sorry it was funny... and well... I'm a clown...
I might go blog at the apple store for an hour.
peace bitchs!

Recession or Jubilee

My daddy is a pastor... People don't know that.


The idea of a recession is b.s to me. I think rich people who scammed everybody and took advantage of everyone trying to live the "American Dream" finally got payback. Poor people are the least effected by this so called recession. The funny thing is that rich people put fear into poor people. They gae poor people the idea that they were losing something. How many people in the hood invested in the stock market? Seriously, If you research recessions a little tiny bit. You'll release that they always end when creative people create new ways to make money or to make life pretty. The internet and Windows ended the last recession. Funny how both Bush's put us in a recession...

In the bible the years are Jubilee were every 7th year the 15th year and the49th or 50th year. I think in order to make crocked places straight the jubilee has to come. Right now the people suffering are ones who believe they have to. Change your mindset and change everything.

• In Deuteronomy 15:1-18, the seventh year is called the LORD'S release, and all debts are to be forgiven. The reason for this law is to relieve the poor.
  
• Exodus 21:1-6 describes how Hebrew servants were to be released in the seventh year, unless they voluntarily desired to be lifelong servants.
  
• Deuteronomy 31:9-13 says that the Law is to be read at the end of the seventh year, at the Feast of Tabernacles. This would ensure that former debtors and servants were properly taught God's Law so they might not have to become poor again.

Source:

http://www.biblestudy.org/bibleref/holy-days/jubilee-and-the-sabbath-year.html


You thouht I was big buko dumb huh...

Grateful

You probably don't know this but I listen to Gospel 90% of the day. I know God. That does NOT make me better than you, that gives me no right to judge you. But it gives me one thing, the privilege to invite you to sit with me at church because I know how hard it is to start over. So Grateful- Hezekiah Walker is stuck in my head like nobody's business. I heard it when in the middle of the night and on my way to work and on pandora. Sometimes I say God if I'm doing the right thing make my song come on... sometimes it does most times I'm wrong lol!
I'm so happy today!!!