Consistent...

I dream CRAZY shit. I can't tell everyone my dreams but if you know what I dream... you know it's CRAZY! A few weeks ago I had a dream about EVERY type of elevator I've ever seen. You ever notice when you're about to figure out the point of your dream you wake up? Or maybe I'm crazy. I need a new vision board. Time to re-write my goals. I see me moving in a new direction!!  

Driving around on fumes

There's no substance no structure, they just exist...

I value substance. Things that don't bother other people BOTHER me. I'm not big on wealth as an idea of financial success, I'm big on ideology. Shallow relationships scare me, shallow people scare me. If the only thing you can offer to conversation is what you read on a gossip blog or saw on BET/VH1... I'm easily bored with you.

What the effff

I don't sleep through the night anymore. Ever since the argument I haven't been able to sleep. Last night I had the most graphic sex dream ever. It was with Jake. Why? Even in my dreams I'm telling myself this is so wrong. Like always I didn't get to cum [what's the point of a wet dream]. I woke up and I prayed. I know Jake is wrong. Wronger than wrong the worst even. I can't ever touch Jake again... But my subconscious is a bad lil girl who enjoys danger.

No sleep

Last night I had 4 dreams 2 nightmare 2 dreams. Everytime I woke up I prayed. I don't remember what I dreamed. I barely remember what I prayed. I know I'm ok. I'm afraid of being smart that means I can't make excuses. I don't know what to write about, I don't even know what to say. I just feel and I can't explain what I feel... maybe it's reality setting in. I can't tell anyone what's wrong with me because I honestly don't know. I've never felt this way before. I'm not going back, he's not coming back. It still sounds crazy to me but it's real. This year I've gotten rid of 3 very important friends because we weren't on the same path in life and it was pointless. Mama said the older I get the smaller the circle would get but I wasn't ready. I'm tired of growing up. I wanna be naive. I'm about to cry so I'll just stop.

Beeeees

I'm so afraid of bees. I've been stung once in my life and I nearly died. Anyway last night my dream was all kinda wild but the part that was the worst was the bees that kept trying to bite me then... They went in my pants. They was trying to bite me on my butt. I was so scared. I woke up sweating. In another part of my dream I was at church and the men weren't singing.. that was really a dream lol.
Why do bees wanna bite my ass crack?? LOL

Nightmare?

I had a dream.. It was so damn strange. I think I had a boo not a b.f a boo. I've never seen this guy before. He was way too skinny for me anyway but still he liked me. We were at some breakfast place but not Ihop or Waffle House. So Jake Steed walks in and says something only he could say at this point I'm laughing probably out loud and in my dream. I say what you bout to go do... he says you. How effin stereotypical. STOP... my dreams and reality are in this thing together... I didn't get the dream wood.. lol. I did however flip scenes and end up in church and Lu said "he really likes you Trev you hurt his feelings running off with that boy". I proceed to wake up...
Somebody told I'd be better off with Jake but I think that dreams means Jake would keep me from the good one