Evolution, wisdom, pride...

“Wisdom ceases to be wisdom when it becomes too proud to weep, too grave to laugh, and too selfish to seek other than itself.” - Kahini Gibran

When's the last time you told a story & made yourself the bad guy? When is the last time you honestly said "I was wrong", not after a long drawn argument I mean as soon as it happened.

It's just the weather

I have theories on everything... duh! In the winter, people crave monogamy. People don't typically travel when it's cool so consistent indoor activity is a most (sex). Also, I think people want gifts during the holidays. During the spring it gets warm, people seem to venture out of the house. The end of spring & summer are the heavy sex seasons. People break up before spring break and get into relationships after Halloween. This has been a really really random thought!!!

Backwards day

Today felt strange from the time I woke up until now... mostly now
Today I didn't talk to Hov once. I'm worried. But I figure he's with his friends [or a lady] dude is fly I know he's not "waiting" on me. Today I talked to b.b.u on the phone (I don't really like talking on the phone.)
I used to love to talk on the phone then I realized texting meant I could multi task. Talking on the phone requires devoting all your attention to that person (for me at least) because if you're watching television or reading you miss the conversation. If I call you feel lucky it means I want to devote my attention to you. Another reason I don't talk on the phone I always get off subject and never finish the damn story just like NOW.
Back to the point.. He called me. My heart got all butterfly-ish. I smiled from ear to ear and when he said my name I could remember the way his mouth looked during every syllable. I miss him alot. He's 90% of my fantasy thoughts. No one understands us hell I don't understand us but I love that dude flaws and all. For some strange reason I don't think he's got another girl maybe I'm naive.While I have another pretend relationship and love for someone else #1 is #1 and nobody gets that twisted ever.
Today Mr. Can't get right did something perfectly and Mr. Perfect dropped the ball....
Strange day.....

This year as opposed to the others

Every Summer I tend to have a fling or at least a crazy crush. This summer... not so much. Normally when the weather changes I crave something flings, monogamy, reciprocity, shit idk somebody to look at. So I get caught up with these nothings.
I loved him I don't know how. How could I? He spells do-due. He doesn't know the difference between singular and plural words. That other one said if he knew what apathy meant he'd choke me. That was hilarious. I've been single all year. I got hit on 5 times this year. I don't think I'm getting ugly but I def think the seasons changing.
I'm not as bold as I used to be. I used to be the type of chick that would just walk up to a guy and get the number. Not so much these days. I'm not shy just more careful.
I wanna open up again and be super honest with somebody but I never found anyone worth me expressing the thoughts that lie beyond the surface.
My life seems stagnant and I'm so ready for something fresh out the back.