I'm reading my private diary from 2008 and for 5 months everything I wrote was about him. I pride myself on being a "thug. I don't usually care about anything... But he's different. He's always been different. So now I'm a hypocrite. I wanna fall in love & get married and have babies, that look like him because his nose is better than mine. I'm not normal. Most people don't tell the world when they go against their "principles" but for me it's like... wow. I'm open to something I never really wanted to be open to.. Does monogamy in your 20s exist? My biggest fear is that it doesn't. BUT I'd leave all my hoes for him. Not like them hoes was acting right or anything. It's just the idea that I'd consider myself someones something... I no likey the titles. I don't like possessive articles. What happens now? I have no idea... If it works.. I can't blog about it.. I'm really not even blogging about it right now. I'm talking around it.. I do not enjoy this shit at all...
