Unfriendly Black Hotties vs. Ghetto Girls

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There are several different black girls that fall in between the two.. This has just been my week.. or not!
Un-friendly Black Hotties- Attractive (keyword being attractive) African American women who have no desire to fit in with the stereotypical norms placed on them by society. E.G. The Simmons. Not all un-friendly black hotties are rich, most are just extremely intelligent and know better therefore do better. They don't aspire to be friendly with common folks hence the term unfriendly. As Toni would say "They keep their social lives social & their personal lives personal". Unfriendly black hotties NEVER befriend basic bitchs. They smell basic and run. They don't gossip but are often gossip'd about. No visible tattoos, brightly colored hair, gold teeth, baby father. They refuse to blend in with the hood folks or "keep it real" just to fit in. They stand out in the good way. Often called siddity, stuck up. rude or even a bitch; they're still the girls you want to hang out with.

Ghetto Girls- African American women who grow up believing that life in one location is healthy. They usually think children are fashionable. Shop at Rave, Dots & Rainbow while carrying "Gucci" bags. They missed the memo that "rich" people wear quality clothing at don't dye their hair red, blue, purple, green or orange. OH or pink! They think that fighting is cool. They gossip! They're catty, insecure and BROKE! They think Atlanta is a fashion capital & view being on the Real Housewives of ATL as an achievement. They're loud, gaudy, unpleasing to the eye, annoying and they often wear Love Spell.

So clearly the differences are obvious. Now if I call myself an un-friendly black hottie, you'll say I'm concieted BUT when's the last time someone thought I was ugly?? Fat yes ugly NO! :-)

What nourishs me... destroys me

None of my current friends have really been with me through the bullshit years. My blog partner knew me when I was unbearable. He's a nice guy. (If you know the real him) & my Jai, she's my rock. Can't forget my Ginfer. But other than that.. I really can't think of anyone's who dealt with me. Maybe tolerated me but not dealt with.

The conflict between past & present self... that's what I keep thinking about. When I decided to change my life I was whole. I had no worries. I'd smile for no reason. I was never bored. I was disconnected from the interenet too. Some kinda magical way I forgot that I stopped having sex, drinking & being an asshole because I was on a mission to be a great person. To be the best me I could possibly be everyday no matter what happened. Some how I got so caught up in the world that I lost sight of the REALLY important things. My relationship with God, my sanity, my family, my joy. I'm upset with myself but I also realize that my church had alot to do with my vision. I've been unhappy with my church for a while but it's my church so I keep going. (me and my misguided loyalty) My church pissed me off more than it made me happy ALL year but everytime I went somewhere else I was fulfilled. At the church I visited yesterday the Pastor talked about how he used to smoke purp and lived that life. He was real. Too real I loved it. Same goes with yesterday hence the realization.

I'm somewhere between Jenna & Jesus BUT I've gone off the deep end. I am Jenna, maybe not physically but mentally... My thoughts are dominated by my "rockstar" persona. I'm not the real me. Or at least an accurate reflection of the person that I am. I'm an optimist. I'm actual a sweetheart, but I will NEVER bite my tongue about something I think is wrong. I've turned into someone who craves sex more than sanity. And why? I had so much peace. I can't explain to you how peaceful life was. So now I move on. I grow. I look at my past and realize that my present doesn't want the me of Saturday & I try my hardest to live being me. The real kind.

LIFE & PUDDLES, LAKES, AND OCEANS THAT COME ALONG THE WAY

THIS IS SOMETHING I WROTE LONG AGO, AND POSTED ON FACEBOOK. I SEE FIT TO REPOST IT TODAY, DUNNO WHY I JUST FEEL LIKE POSTING IT!


PUDDLES, LAKES, AND OCEANS, BE CAREFUL WHICH BODY OF WATER YOU CHOSE TO STEP IN OR TRAVEL...

PUDDLES OFTEN COME WHEN THERE APPEARS TO BE NO SUN IN YOUR LIFE OR THEIRS. IT DOESNT TAKE MUCH FOR A PUDDLE TO BE FORMED AND IT DOESNT TAKE LONG TO CROSS A PUDDLE, THEY ARE A QUICK FIX AND JUMPING INTO THEM WHEN YOU ARE DOWN MAY EVEN BRIGHTEN YOU UP... BUT HOW LONG WILL THEY STICK AROUND. SEE PUDDLES OFTEN THINK OF THEMSELVES AND ONLY COME AROUND YOU WHEN THERES STORMS IN YOUR WORLD...BUT OFTEN DISAPPEAR WHEN THE SUN IS IN THERES. AND EVERTIME IT RAINS YOU ARE SURE TO FIND ANOTHER. THEY CAN EVEN BE CREATED WITH WATER HOSES.

LAKES ON THE OTHER HAND TAKE A LOT LONGER TO FORM AND CAN RUN A LOT DEEPER. THOUGH IT SEEMS HARD, THOSE WHO PUT IN WORK CAN ACTUALLY SURVIVE AND PREPARE THEMSELVES TO SWIM ACCROSS A LAKE. JUST LIKE PUDDLES, WITH THE RIGHT CONDITIONS AND WITHOUT CONTINUOUS REPLENISHMENT OF H20 A LAKE CAN BECOME EXTINCT, THEY CAN DRY UP JUST LIKE THEY WERE NEVER THERE. THEY CAN ALSO FREEZE SOLID

OCEANS THE BIGGEST OF THEM ALL HAVE TAKEN THOUSANDS OF YEARS TO FORM... AND THOUGH THEY LOSE WATER TO EVAPORATION, THE LIFECYCLE OF AN OCEAN IS ALWAYS REPLENISHED AT A HIGH RATE...THE MOST DANGEROUS OF THESE BODIES OF WATER AS WELL, OCEANS ARE FILLED WITH ICEBERGS, HURRICANES, TYPHOONS, AND THOUSANDS OF SPECIES OF ANIMALS, MANY WHICH ARE VERY DANGEROUS...YOU WONT FIND ANYONE THAT CAN SWIM AN ENTIRE OCEAN THROUGH THE LONGEST POINT.

BUT STILL I SAY IF YOU WANT TO SURVIVE... THROW YOURSELF IN THE MIDDLE OF THE BIGGEST OCEAN YOU CAN FIND AND SWIM FOR YOUR LIFE.

PUDDLES ARE SHALLOW PEOPLE WHO COME AND GO AND ONLY THINK OF THEMSELVES. THEY SIT IDLE AND GIVE YOU NOTHING AS THE WORLD AROUND YOU COLLAPSES. THEY WILL LEAVE YOU AS SOON AS CONDITIONS CHANGE AND THEY CANT HANDLE THINGS IN YOUR LIFE...YOU WONT MISS THEM IF THEY ARE GONE BECAUSE ANOTHER IS ONLY A FEW FEET AWAY ON RAINY DAYS. THE REASON YOU CAN MAKE PUDDLES WITH A HOSE IS BECAUSE ITS A FALSE BODY OF WATER THAT CAN BE CREATED AT ANY RANDOM ASS TIME. IT DOESNT TAKE MUCH TO GET ONE..THEY HAPPEN SO OFTEN AND ARENT REALLY SIGNIFICANT

THOUGH LAKES ARE BIGGER THEY ARE STILL PUDDLES IN A SENSE.. THEY ARE PEOPLE WHO MAKE THEMSELVES APPEAR TO BE MORE THAN THEY ARE IN YOUR LIFE...MASKING THEMSELVES AS BIG BODIES OF WATER SUCH AS OCEANS THEY MAKE A FALSE PRESENCE IN YOUR LIFE. STILL IDLE BODIES OF WATER WITH A LITTLE MORE TO OFFER BUT NOT QUITE AN OCEAN.LAKES CAN BE EASILY NAVIGATED AND EASILY CROSSED IN SOMETHING AS SIMPLE AS A CANOE OR JET SKI. AND MANY LIKE TO TAKE A DIP IN THEM JUST TO ENJOY THE MOMENT.

THE WATERS OF THE OCEAN ARE MORE TREACHEROUS AND TAKE MUCH LONGER TO FORM..THEY ARE REPLENISHED BY RIVERS THAT ARE IN CONSTANT FLOW.IN ORDER TO EXIST IN OCEANS ONE HAS TO BE DEDICATED TO FIGHTING THROUGH THE STORMS, OF HURRICANES AND TYPHOONS...(TROUBLED WATERS OF FIGHTING) ONE HAS TO BE READY FOR THE SHARKS AND EELS IN THE WATER(HATERS) IF YOU HIT AN ICEBERG YOU MUST FIGHT AND LOVE ENDLESSLY LIKE JACK AND ROSE... (IF YOU LOVE ONE ANOTHER DO SO TILL THE END) YOU SHOULD NEVER LOOK FOR THE QUICK FIX OR THE EASIEST WAY TO GET ACROSS THESE TROUBLED TIMES... BE SMART IN THE OCEAN, IT CAN DEVOUR YOU. DONT ENTER TO QUICKLY AND ONCE YOU DO, DONT ENTER FALSE HEARTEDLY BECAUSE YOU WILL BE DISCOVERED AND PROBABLY DROWN.. NO MATTER HOW ROUGH IT GETS YOUR OCEAN IS GOING TO BE AROUND IF ITS TRUE. IT WONT EVAPORATE ON YOU. CONDENSATION ALWAYS REFILLS IT...RIVERS ALWAYS BRING WATER BACK.

DONT JUMP INTO A PUDDLE BECAUSE ITS THE SURE THING TO CONQUER, DONT FLOAT ON A LAKE BECAUSE YOU ARE CONTENT AND THINK ITS BIG ENOUGH AND YOU CAN SKATE BY..GET YOUR SCUBA GEAR AND DIVE HEADFIRST IN THE MIDDLE OF YOUR OCEAN AND BREATHE NIGGA, BREATHE.

SURVIVING A PUDDLE OR LAKE IS OK FOR THE SHORT RUN, BUT YOU HAVE TO LOVE HARD ENOUGH TO CO-EXIST WITH THE OCEAN. MINE HAS WORN ME OUT BUT THE THOUGHT THAT IM STILL ALIVE IN HER AFTER ALL THATS BEEN THROWN AT US KEEPS ME ALIVE IN IT AND HER...