Certified Committable

So after the big blow up and mms message of the Rear tellin Me to Kiss her ass goodbye, the muhfukka starts up again! So Im currently in the process of a restraining order and makin sure that EBR Sheriffs Office and BRPD, document all this bullshit incase a nigga have to smack a bitch in self defense or worse! So she stalks on and on!





She wants me to say I forgive her to lift some type of burden or bad feeling supposedly. Sad thing is I know its not right to not let people know that they are forgiven. I dont hold grudges, but she's gonna have to continue to live without an answer. I know that if I play into answering her or saying I forgive her that her sad ass will see it as having a foot back in the door for more Crazy shit. If you flipped out this hard over me not letting you in as a friend who knows what the fuck will happen. I refuse to be a lifetime movie. niggaz laughin but takin the right steps away and documenting shit with the police and courts may save that ass! Serve her ass them papers EBR

Is it possible?

"I'm a hoe & I'm going to accept that" - B.B.U

It seems crazy to me but I'm living it so I know it's true. Everyday I grow. I say some off the wall stuff, we all know that. Behind the scenes I'm over analyzing everything. On this mission to accomplish personal happiness, I've had to let things go & embrace new things. I've changed my ideas on things I thought I made my mind up about...
For example, Mr. B he's broken my heart, but he's the only man who knows everything... & when I say everything, I mean the secrets I can't tell myself. I've started to realize that anyone whose dealt with me consistently for the last 5 years deserves a place in my life. I've been drunk, high, retarded, suicidal, judgmental, superfical & just plain evil at times, he's still here (no pussy is that good it's gott be love). I realize that I'm a handful and frankly I wouldn't have dealt with the old me. I'm not trying to wife him.. I want someone better than him BUT his friendship is greatly appreciated & lets not front I might bounce on it from time to time. I don't leave to be chased, I leave to formulate conclusions without outside influence.
In the process of over analyzing myself I've realized that I crave monogamy most when I feel that nothing in my life is going right. That's really dumb and since everything in my life is going right, I'm thinking clearly. When I'm sad I let people get away with shit. I'm toooo happy. Also the longer I go without sex the easier it is for me to realize I don't care about too much too often. Big is a hoe and he admits his flaws. That's all good for me.
Here's the point: I wonder how I grow so much. Everyday I come to a new realization about who I am, who I want to be, & what I want. I'm consistently honest & hilarious but my views on things change. I don't wanna be someone's girl. I want my own identity. I don't want to depend on my parents anymore, I'm too old for that. I want a flat stomach & huge boobs (somethings never change). I love learning, growing and changing. I don't want pride. I'm happy to admit when I'm wrong it helps me grow. I'm not taking shit anymore, if I don't like it I don't need it. I LOVE my friends I don't need anyone else. I know who I want to be & nobody has to agree with that. I'm comfortable in my skin.. I don't even want dick & conversation... (if it's not from Big)

Concealed Weapon Permit on Deck

Remember when I said Jane Doe told me goodbye because she wasnt getting anywhere beyond friendship..If i end up being the subject for an episode of snapped or Forensic Files then My blog partner has the password for my phone so the police can investigate and catch her! I have never seriously considered getting a restraining order against a female until now. A lot of you say just change your #, thats the hardest thing to do for someone who works on a lot of referral or return clientel business! But here is court exhibit A








Im really tempted to post her picture so other niggaz can stay away... She really is attractive..maybe she's too attractive because she actually thinks that im tellin her no so that i will appear to be unattractive so she doesnt want me. What kinda logic????? No 28 year old should be this damn retarded. I hope every women doesnt send a nigga a pic of that ass talkin about Kiss it to say goodbye!