I'm not Catholic but for Lent I'm giving something up. I'm giving up the delusional fantasy world I live in. It's going to be hard. I don't know how to live outside this world I've created for myself. It's safe. I've become a snail or something. I hide in my shell and refuse to live life. I used to drink too much but at least back then I lived. This stale pit of depression that I live in has made me a horrific person. I hate myself. I'm not living just existing. I'm hoping that this new job and the move get me out of this bullshit I currently live in. My slump is mostly my fault and I understand that perfectly.
I realized my problem and I'm giving it up.. On to reality.
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