oxymornic much... possibly

When I was younger I didn't date/like black guys. But when I did it was always a black guy who only dated white girls. I still have this issue. They don't have swag and most of them are losers but they have so much in common with me. It's like 2 token black kids dating it's cute almost. Anyway I have another one... crush I mean well I've had like 7 since I got to college. I get "friendzoned" all the time; the last one ended in a a tragic 90 second whatever the hell that was... really I'm not that good. Why do I always fall for the black guy who likes white girls? oxymornic?